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lissiel (lissiel) wrote,
@ 2009-01-14 19:17:00

Entry tags:

fail, insomnia ftw!, retard emo, wedding

The theme for my foreseeable future is: Very Exciting, But Still...
Argh. Argh.

I am going to graduate in May. Probably. Assuming the school actually lets me take every class I need to next semester, and assuming they haven't lied to me about things filling requirements. I HAVE ABSOLUTELY NO IDEA what I'm going to do after that. Work? AHAhahah. Probably not. Graduate school? Maybe, depending on deadlines. But for what? And THEN what do I do with it? I AM NOT ACTUALLY COMPETENT IN ANYTHING YOU GUYS. D:

This winter semester thing is fun. 3 units in 10 days sounds like a great idea, and it does keep me from getting bored and blowing the class off. But it's also a week's worth of work every day. For two weeks. Complete with tests and papers. And it starts at 8am, whether or not I'm able to get to sleep before 3am. So I haven't slept more than five hours in a row since monday last week, and all I want to do is curl up in a ball and not talk to anyone ever again.

Despite original disagreements, I think we've gotten people to agree to the guest-list being roughly 40 people? For now? We'll see, I guess. To me, that's like...jeezus, FORTY PEOPLE? Do I know that many people? But we had like 100 to start with. I was foreseeing mad panic attacks or completely drugged-out incoherence in my future. :Db Good times! ~~No seriously, can we just run away? Elvis can marry us, and we'll just hide out until everyone forgets we ever said anything. Okay? Okay? Bueller?~~

And to top it all off, I'm getting sick, and haven't been able to keep any food down except a few crackers since this morning. ROCK.

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(Anonymous)
2009-01-14 11:40 pm UTC (link)

Poor you. I hope that you get better soon. I have been home alone for a week and that drives me crazy. My friend Noelle is a ghost essentially. I haven't seen her since July. She was supposed to meet up with me and now shes been sick for a week. I feel like shes avoiding me. I didn't quite react in the appropriate way when I learned she was married and I'm wondering if shes mad at me. Truth is I don't like her husband. Hes unfocused and I don't know why she is ok with that. Why don't you and Mike just go to some court house and get married and then just hang out with people afterward? That way you won't have to be nervous. What class are you taking for summer school? Did you look at matrickulation lists online? Those should have told you what you needed for gen ed and also online should have been the 4 upper division gen ed. How come you can't sleep? I don't know what skills I have either. Sometimes I don't think I have been learning that much at school. Looking forward to hanging out when I get back.
--Greta

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lissiel
2009-01-15 09:08 am UTC (link)

I know; I'm actually really blessed in a lot of ways, and I shouldn't complain. *sigh* Just sick and tired and cranky, I'll get over it. :)

I'm sorry that you've been alone, that's not too fun. I think I'm coming down saturday--we could get coffee sunday morning before I come home if you wanted? Maybe you should talk to noel, though? I mean, you don't have to love her husband, but if you want to be her friend anyway, it might be worth it to just let that part of things go. Tell her, you know, that you just worry that she won't be happy, but that if he DOES make her happy, then you'll deal and that you still want to be friends? Or something? And maybe if you guys talk about it, she'll be able to explain to you why she likes this guy so much. You never know.

I have looked at the lists and such. I just. You remember I told you about last semester there were a bunch of people who thought they were graduating because the teaching-advisers told them to do a bunch of things that turned out not to count? I'm just nervous something like that will happen to me. SJSU isn't so organized, you know. And even if I do graduate, it's still scary. You're looking into the Library Science masters, yeah? What do you think of it, and what subsection were you looking at? I might do that too, if you were ok with it.

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(Anonymous)
2009-01-15 11:34 am UTC (link)

You have a really good man and I think thats just awesome. You see I predict that Noelle and her husband are going to break up in a certain amount of years. I am glad to have my cat Scouter with me. Helps a little bit. I do still want to be friends with her. Am not exactly sure what to say to Noelle. I like her, but her husband is ADHD and can't make it through a conversation. He can't keep a job. Of course I want Noelle to be happy. You know how you can spot bad boyfriends a mile away when it comes to your friends. I have had the same experience with one of the undergrad advisors (them telling you one thing and some other person telling another thing). Now I am stuck taking a 100W class that relates to history. I thought I wouldn't have to, but I do. I haven't even applied yet for grad school. Scares me to death. I don't even know what I want to do for that major. Why is it that the MPC counslers knew everything that was important to know and SJSU people know nothing. Its like you can't trust them.
--Greta

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mitsuhachi
2009-01-15 07:15 pm UTC (link)

Okay, but saying bad things about the man she's chosen to spend her life with--whether or not she changes her mind later--isn't going to do anything but lose you your friend. So, you can either deal with the fact that you don't like him and stay her friend and just not talk about him, or you can not deal, and not talk to either of them. You can't help her choices, only your own.

SJSU counselors are the most irritating professionals I've ever had to deal with. Hands down.

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(Anonymous)
2009-01-15 08:26 pm UTC (link)

I never said anything to her about her husband. All I did was ask her why she was getting married. I want to talk to her. We used to get together all the time and now its different. It isn't the first time that I have had to deal with someone's undesirable man. One thing I always wonder about SJSU is: why doesn't everybody know the same thing? Everyone who works at SJSU has a different piece of the puzzle or has outdated knowledge. Why is that? Does no one talk to each other there? Those are my big questions for SJSU.
--Greta

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	regicidaldwarf 2009-01-15 11:42 am UTC (link)
	Oh no, I hope you feel better soon! D: Sickness must be vanquished. Also I hope the school doesn't screw you over, that would suck. I guess there isn't much you can do about it now though? (Reply to this) (Thread)

mitsuhachi
2009-01-15 07:13 pm UTC (link)

I'm feeling a lot better today. I crashed at about 8 last night and slept right on through til quarter 'til when I had to get up and go to class, so. Also, amazing how much less stressful things seem when you've eaten that day. I always forget what a difference that makes. Lol.

School will be fine. If I have to do another semester, then that's what I'll do. It'll be annoying, sure, but not the end of the world.

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